Minesweeper Effect

I feel like my life is a game of minesweeper lately… I click on one thing, and it opens up a whole network of other things to explore and interact with!

Please excuse me while I go play a round or two right now to help me keep fresh the analogy ideas I have in mind for this post, hehe. Be back in a gif… 😉

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So… minesweeper. Ah yes, this beloved game. It’s all I’ve been able to think about recently as I ponder what’s going on in my head space. It’s like I’ve been infused with this adrenaline shot of excitement and passion for cultivating our family’s lifestyle, and each new idea I “click” uncovers new information, leaving me with an overwhelming number of directions to go exploring.

At first you become super giddy when you click and find that you’ve hit a “sweet spot” that brought to light a whole web of info across the puzzle board, but you must remain calm and analyze what to do with each piece of information one step at a time, or your giddiness will make you click on a bomb or mislabel your discoveries. When you hit a roadblock, you shouldn’t dilly-dally there for long and allow anxiety to build that you’re not making progress. Calmly move to an area that you have enough information to figure it out, and it will often wrap you back around to help you figure out the area you were struggling to solve before.

Sometimes you reach a point where you just really don’t know what will happen if you click. You risk hitting a bomb and ending the game. At this point we could take this analogy in a number of different directions and uncover truth… or hit an unhelpful bomb. Analogies don’t work perfectly for every situation. But for today, this game analogy is pointing me to remember that… life is so fun and abundant when I’m walking with the Lord. I enjoy processing new possibilities and information He brings across my path. I love it when He uncovers more of my passions inside me that He has uniquely created me with that may have been buried for awhile. But I need to remember that it’s okay to slow down a bit and walk carefully as I explore… taking into consideration the way one new block of information affects others. Taking time to delight in one new click at a time and not blazing ahead to just click on them all at once, risking hitting a bomb along the way.

I recently heard a new take on a well-known verse. When Jesus asked us to take His yoke upon us to find rest for our souls, He doesn’t mean we’ll stop working, but we’ll be yoked with Him. Working together in the direction He guides us to go. The work will be easier and lighter as we follow where He leads and He shares in the work or often works in and through us most importantly, to accomplish God’s purposes for God’s glory. Nothing else matters, folks!  This has brought me encouragement these days, and I hope it encourages you as well.

Overwhelm, positive or negative?

2017 has overwhelmed me…

Google says overwhelm means “having a strong emotional effect.” Yes… my “overwhelm meter” has been increasing so far this year. But I can thankfully say that the strong emotions that are overwhelming me are primarily not negative, they’re positive, exciting, life-giving, joy-bringing!!

The first week of the year we were finishing up our month-long stay in Iowa for my brother’s wedding and the holidays. It was such a sweet time, something I had been looking forward to, especially after the birth of our second son in October. I couldn’t wait to introduce him to more of my family and friends on the other side of the ocean. Plus, I could leave our home and pack life up into just a few suitcases. (Oh man, this is a whole new blog post – how I feel in my home… I love it, I’m thankful for it… but I too often can’t “rest” in it because it’s like a constantly unfinished project. Oofta…) I couldn’t wait for the more constant help with the boys since Pavlos wouldn’t be working all day, and we’d be staying with my parents so every night there were extra hands to help keep them occupied.  So all of that to say, there were a few moments that first week of the year when we were preparing to leave my Iowa family again and return to Athens where my overwhelm emotions were far from positive. I was afraid and for some reason lacking confidence in myself for the next season ahead.

But so many good things have happened over the past two months!

I am reading Scripture with a group of people and a set of resources that I think are just top notch and motivating! I am taking care of my physical health with help from my in-laws through accountability in healthy eating and taking care of the boys so I can fit in some exercise. Pavlos and I have delved deep into the conversation of potentially homeschooling our children, and it is rocking my world and rattling all of my “passion sensors.” I am excited to start introducing solid foods to my little boy who watches us googly-eyed as we eat these days. I am slowly easing back into assisting with the worship for our church family. I have a long list of people lined up to invite to our home to share a meal and conversation with. I have so much mental motivation to make improvements in the organization of our home and “stuff!”

I am overwhelmed… I can’t get enough of all of these things… And there is plenty more to share on top of what I already have shared. Especially what joy overwhelms my heart when I can hang out with my little boys and watch them laugh and discover new things. Or have a long conversation with my husband that helps us know and understand one another better, deepening our love and appreciation for each other.

But… there is a problem with this overwhelm right now. Like, I’m on the brink of not sleeping and resting enough! And for the past week or so I can feel the angst welling up in my gut. Not brought on by negative things… brought on by things that excite me, give me joy, that I truly have strength and energy to invest in…. but… I can’t. I can’t focus on them all and do them all well, and accomplish everything I aspire to.  And I need to swing back to protect myself from not losing control. Reign in my aspirations a bit. Keep focusing on one thing at a time. Keep celebrating the joy in each moment. And learn to make the best decisions for each moment that arises and how I should spend those seconds, minutes, hours available to me…

Oh how I want to write more… I want to blog more… I want to process my thoughts more.  I want to edit this post even better as well.  But right now I guess I’m just… thankful. And I’m going to rest in that. And I pray, Good Shepherd, that you would lead me to where I should go. To streams of living water. To rest in green pastures. To follow the path you have for me and my family. Thank you for taking extra special care of me as I am leading my young. (Isaiah 40:11)  Thank you for being my strength when I am weak. Thank you for filling my life with so much joy. And as I feel overwhelmed by your goodness and love towards me, may it overflow to those around me for YOUR glory. That they may know you, the source of my life lived in this abundance of your grace, love, hope, peace… and delight… as you smile over me as I rejoice and giggle in my daily exciting discoveries. 🙂

 

Crescendo Focus – I’m a Mama

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My son can draw circles! I love watching Theodore display one of the trillions of new things he’s cementing in that developing brain of his. It was weird for me witnessing the transition of him changing from my baby to “the big boy,” “the big brother,” now that Matthew has officially joined our family. I want to cherish these moments as their Mama. I want to rejoice when they discover something new. I want to encourage them when they accomplish a new skill… my son can draw circles! And not just any circles. He can draw wheels for the wagon of the train that we draw on the paper for him… I’m proud and thankful for my sweet boy. And I love watching him be a concerned and loving big brother for his baby brother, Matthew. 🙂  And I love watching Matthew already learning new things too! I mean this kid smiled genuinely hugely at me a couple days before he was 4 weeks old! And ever since he has been responding to smiles by opening that adorable mouth of his as wide as he can with eyes and a whole face bright and full of glee. Wow… this little one. So precious. I’m so thankful God has given them to me and that I have a front row seat watching them develop and grow.

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I’m more and more aware that I need Christ to be working in my life, developing my character, so that I will keep growing and developing, discovering new aspects of what it means to bear good fruit for God’s glory. I’ve had my share of failures, and I’m thankful I live surrounded by people who give me grace. I pray I will give this same abundance of grace to my sons as I watch them learning and growing. And at the same time, I want to know when and how to discipline and instruct them appropriately so that they don’t grow in wrong directions. I need this in my own life… and I hope I’ll be open to this instruction, and find people who I can call on to truly hold me accountable and teach me more by word and example. I am much more of who I am supposed to be when I dress myself with Christ-like compassion… love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control. Oh yes, I need these things… more and more and more of this.

f – Living Out Loud in the context of my family in Christ
I see the wider community I have been given in Christ, and I long to learn and grow from the example of the others, as “parents” in my life. And yet, I’m also a parent to younger generations behind me, not just my sons that have been given to me to influence on a more daily basis. Lord, give me the eyes to see those around me you have called me to be a part of their story, helping shape their life’s story – their growing and developing into more Christ-likeness as well.

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This life is a journey of growing and developing, learning new things, and strengthening our character. As a Mama I have a front row seat watching my 2.5 year old and 2 month old grow right now. I am thankful to have Christ in my life, influencing my own growth and development towards the good fruit He gives me the impetus to bear. I am thankful that I am not an island, but I have been given an extensive network in the Body of Christ of relationships that are both parenting me and being parented by me. May I not take lightly my responsibility within such a special community. And most important of all, God my Father is calling us all onward towards a completely redeemed forever with Him. The trials of this life are bearable, and the joys of this life simply cannot compare when I ponder the future we are promised in Christ. Thank you Lord, for saving my soul. Thank you Lord, for making me whole. Thank you Lord, for giving to me, Thy great salvation so rich and free…

The Gathering of God’s People

So I read this article today… The Missing Elements of Modern Worship

And posted this Facebook post about it…

Reading this article uprooted a lot of emotions from within me today…I started typing a wall post that became way too long, so I’ll move my extra thoughts to a blog post…

Mostly I just ask you to join me in praying that the gatherings of God’s people will be thoughtfully and wisely crafted by leaders prayerfully in tune with the Spirit’s urgings and including only those “elements of worship” that are most beneficial in building up the Body of Christ, drawing us closer to knowing Him more fully, and therefore compelling us to be more useful tools for God’s Kingdom building purposes!.
With tears or longing… Amen, my Lord – Let it be so…

And here are my “extra thoughts” that didn’t need to be left as a massive wall post:

I am so rarely satisfied with the gathering of God’s people in worship anymore…

I’m longing for something more… More to me is not bigger and flashier, it’s often smaller and simpler, and includes the things mentioned in the article.

God has given me a huge passion for this. I spent years studying the topic in college, and I have had several opportunities to be involved in “crafting worship”… but I am still so far from satisfied with what I’ve participated in or helped lead. I struggle with feeling guilty that I haven’t offered enough, knowing that there’s so much more buried inside of me wanting to be dug up and poured out for the benefit of the Body…

Instead of wallowing in guilt, I pray that God who has created me and sharpened me as His tool for good use in His Kingdom will continue molding me, and may I trust Him to dust me off and pick me up when He and I are both ready, making me useful still to draw His people closer to Himself!

May I recognize the difference between laziness and wise priority-focused decision making (like uh, working hard in the home in this season with littles!)…

I suppose this discontentment is a positive catalyst that keeps the fire and desire for growth and improvement alive… It takes focus, hard work, and intentionality to implement worthwhile change… and I long for the discipline and determination to help be a part of this for God’s glory in whatever context He places me in. Right now that is my home, my neighborhood, among my circle of friends, and with a growing church plant in an area of downtown Athens…

Help me, God. Help me live for others and not for myself, following Christ’s example of following you obediently. But may I know your voice evermore clearly so that I know what command I am to follow in this season. Trusting you and walking ahead bold and confident that you are with me doing the greater work.

Who’s Voice Am I Listening To?

Today is my due date. (Well, it was when I started typing this, haha. Now it’s my due date +2 – like the timing of my little guy Theodore’s birth)

Waiting is hard. But it’s hardest when I allow the voices of others to take over the peace that I long to be reigning in my heart. The peace that I’m trusting and following my Lord obediently in each decision I’m making.

So many people speak into our lives, and thankfully there is often helpful advice and wisdom that can be gained by listening to the thoughts, opinions, and experiences of     others. But we should never let it supersede the only Voice of Truth in our lives that should take first place.

I’m a people pleaser… I take joy in the joy of others, and I all too often cater to listening to the opinions and ideas of others and then follow their seemingly so well-established convictions, simply because I am assuming it gives them something for me to follow their insight.  (Somehow I think it will show them that I valued them – or trust them – or respect them, and didn’t just throw their efforts or thoughtfulness in sharing with me with a flippant “oh just leave me alone, you have nothing to offer me” attitude).  Of course, this will be more or less true based on the relationship I have with the person offering the advice, but I give this right to the WHOLE range of people in my life, from the newest stranger I first meet (because I actually, oddly enough, struggle to continue thinking of a person as a stranger after a very small amount of time of interacting with them!), to my closest companion and confidant, my husband.

Recently, I’ve finally been coming to realize that for me to lose the confidence of following the ideas and convictions I’ve been given in my own heart and mind (not without the advice of others still, or most importantly my prayer journaling time with my Lord) is a much greater blessing to those around me, especially my family and husband, than it is to simply cave and cater easily.

Again, this does not mean usurping a serious decision made by someone with authority in my life whom I deem important, worthy and appropriate to submit to, but it also doesn’t mean slacking off in finding healthy ways for me to express my own thoughts and concerns – and most importantly, doing the hard work of even searching for what my truly personal ideas even are! I think that is something I struggle most with in all this. Who am I really? Is it okay for me to be me? Is it okay for me to have a different opinion in x, y, z situation? When is a decision truly just a difference of personality and opinion, and when does it inch into sinfulness because I’ve chosen to value a certain sort of thing over another?  These are the questions I still wrestle with.

So with all of these thoughts on the table, I had a few challenging moments in the past week debating between  the “plan” of attempting a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) or not. And how hard to work at following “tips and tricks” advice to “get that baby outta there.” Thankfully, after calming down, verbal processing with some of my closest friends and my Lord and Savior, I was able to come back to that place of peace and confidence and become honest with myself about where my true motivations and ideas were rooted. I pray the Lord keeps me pure from selfishness, yet confident in who He has made me to be, to lead and guide me to His will for MY life for HIS glory!

Och… and as always, I wish I could write, reflect, edit, and think more through all these thoughts… but I must go get ready to check how my little bub is holding up in there while we’re waiting to meet his sweet face on the outside in a matter of just a handful more hours or days… 🙂

 

Letter to a Sister in Christ Just Beginning to Date

What a privilege to write to you today and share with you important wisdom that helped me navigate through the high school dating season of life.

I like fruit. A lot. And while savoring it’s yummy sweet or sour goodness, I often try to think of the Fruit of the Spirit and pray for it to be evident in me through Christ’s redeeming work and power. I’d like to use the list of the Fruits of the Spirit found near the end of Paul’s letter to the Galatians to help guide the encouraging advice I pass on to you today.

First up, LOVE.

What could be a more appropriate word than that when it comes to dating a fine young man who you find attractive and interesting, right? You would surely not be “in a relationship” with him if you weren’t hoping, or already saying and believing, that you’ve “fallen in love.” Correct? 🙂 Well my, oh my, love is a vastly complex, profound, and interesting thing that we won’t have time to talk on and on about in this letter, but I have an especially important point to make before moving on to our next “fruit.”

The song “I Am Loved” by the Gaither Vocal Band was sung on my wedding day, and I can’t begin to tell you how often I’ve come back to the lyrics and clung to the truths shared within them during both challenging and good times. Please do look it up and listen to it, but the main point is summed up within the chorus: I am loved, I can risk loving you, for the One who knows me best loves me most. I am loved, you are loved. Won’t you please take my hand. We are free to love each other. We are loved.

The absolute best way you can grow “in love” with someone is to know and experience God’s infinite, crazy, awesome love and forgiveness for you. And as you rest in that abiding, tender, fully encompassing love, you will be all the more free to truly love another.

JOY.

🙂 Don’t stop smiling. If you start losing your smile, don’t delay in madly searching for the reason why so you can uproot it’s ugly cause and get back to embracing joy in your life. One thing that helps is thinking of things to be thankful for. Being joyful doesn’t mean you’ll never be sad or angry or grieving about any given event in your life. But it does mean that the joy will always be “hugging” that negative event or thing, not letting go of you. Ever present. Keeping the hard stuff in perspective of the joy that comes when we’ve realized that our hope lies in eternal life because of Christ’s work on the cross to forgive our sins and bring us back in right relationship with the God of the universe. Therefore. enJOY life, fully. Those who are in Christ have more reason than anyone to laugh, play, have fun, and enjoy the good things in God’s creation. Do this with your boyfriend. Keep the joy there. And whenever and as often as possible, don’t just keep it between yourselves. Share fun times while getting to know each other’s family better, while hanging out with friends together, while serving someone in the community together. Be creative. And be JOY-full!!

PEACE.

My favorite verses for over a decade have been from Paul’s letter to the Philippians, the ones found in chapter four that remind us not to worry. I used to be kind of a worrywart as a young girl, but after clinging to this truth and growing more in relationship with my Savior, I can thankfully say that a deep-seeded peace has taken up root in my heart and doesn’t often let me waver into deep fears or despair, even when, or especially when, I don’t know what to do next in life. What will be just around the next corner? How do I make a hard decision? etc. There will likely be several of those moments and questions while navigating a new relationship. When is it okay to hold hands, to kiss, to show any other physical affection towards each other? When will he or I say those words “I love you?” If these things have happened already, then how often should they happen? Where will we both be after we graduate high school? The same college? The same state even? Does this guy already like me enough to consider me someone he could see as his future wife? And on and on and on the questions go. Heed this advice, dear one: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, bring your requests, worries and fears before God. And the PEACE of God, which goes beyond all understanding, will keep your heart and mind deeply rooted in Christ Jesus.” (A bit of my own paraphrasing was used. Go ahead and paraphrase it personally for yourself and never forget it!)

I would also add that if you’re feeling uneasy, without peace, or have “checks in your spirit” about how the relationship is moving forward, don’t ignore them. Talk about them with wise Christians you trust, ideally who know you both and have witnessed at least a little of your relationship interactions live, and then of course, be honest with him as well. If you do truly care about each other, you’ll want to know the thoughts and concerns either of you has and be in a place that you’re real with each other. You want to move forward only if you’re both honestly feeling like you would feel even less peace to do otherwise. Learn to recognize, listen for and trust the inner voice of the Holy Spirit leading and guiding you, urging you to follow in obedience the good steps He has planned for you for God’s glory.

PATIENCE. KINDNESS. GOODNESS. GENTLENESS.

Relationships need a LOT of this fruit in them. So eat up!! 😉 No matter who the person is you are growing to like, enjoy, and love more and more, there will never be someone who doesn’t come with a long list of weaknesses and quirks to match his equally long list of wonderful qualities. You need to learn and forever continue practicing patience. And kindness. Understanding. And gentleness. For the sake of being real with you, I have failed pretty miserably at these things for much of this summer. I’ve been a hot, tired, sore, cranky really pregnant mother of a two year old, and I’ve had a number of pity parties for myself in which I have become very self-centered instead of focusing on how I can serve and love my husband in the midst of his own difficulties he’s been facing in this season. I have not been quick to forgive in the moments he has let me down. I have not been kind, tender, meek or gentle with him in many of my words and actions. I have not sought to do good towards him, but more often, I have sought to manipulate him to do good towards me, to grant me the good things I desperately think I have the “right to” receive from him. It doesn’t matter how “right” I am or not or what sort of long list of excuses I could make for my own horrendous behavior. This is not beautiful, attractive, or easy to live with in a relationship with another. We all have moments of weakness and failure, and the best we can do for each other is show love through patience, kindness, gentleness, and seeking the good for another, and not first for ourselves. It is so incredibly freeing and life-giving when we can begin living this way. God, help us! (And actually, He already has if we’ll only keep at the forefront of our minds His own incredibly humbling example. Go check out Philippians 2:1-11. I especially like the way the Message paraphrase puts it if you can access that)

It’s one thing to live these qualities out in a daily marriage relationship, but it’s also important to begin practicing these things often in a dating relationship. There’s this awkward tendency when you’re dating to think you have the right to shop for the absolute “perfect product,” so the moment that your partner messes up, you think you have the right to break up with him because he has failed you, and you haven’t sworn to commit yourself to him yet. (This is one of the biggest challenges and problems with dating that we’ll mention a bit more about in the next section) On the one hand, it is wise to seek the counsel of others who have had a chance to know you both and can affirm if you can serve and love one another well as a relationship team with your mix of personalities and gifts. Heed the advice and warnings mentioned, for sure. But at the same time, both of you will also do and say things in your relationship with one another, and simply in living your own daily lives, that will not be perfect or God-honoring or “marriage quality material.” I encourage you to have a heart first to look beyond these faults in the other to the deeper more important matter. Does this person have a repentant heart and attitude when they have failed? Are they allowing God to work in their life to produce a Christlike character? Do you see evidence of them giving room for the Holy Spirit to plant this Fruit of the Spirit tree in their life to produce these super important fruit qualities? Are you yourself allowing God to work in your heart to produce patience, kindness, gentleness and goodness towards others even when you feel you have been unfairly treated or misunderstood? Think about these things often and seek to make them a part of your dating relationship, and they will serve you well not only in your future marriage relationship, but also in any relationship! I would encourage you to memorize the “love chapter” of the Bible, 1 Corinthians 13, that lists these exact qualities for what true love is!

FAITHFULNESS.

What first comes to mind with this word might be its opposite – unfaithfulness. When you hear of couples ending their dating or marriage relationships, you’ll often hear it was because of the unfaithfulness of one or the other or both. Obviously, this is against God’s perfect design, and in fact, the Bible is one long story displaying God’s faithfulness to a broken and lost, unfaithful people. This is where I throw in an emphatic encouragement to study the Bible and get to know The Story. It’s the most beautiful love story there is. I pray you’ll come to know and love more and more our faithful and loving God.
Also, I think this is an appropriate “fruit” heading to bring up another important topic regarding “Christian dating” in this modern age. I think there is a misconception out there about what is more important regarding how “seriously” you should date someone. Is it better to not be “too serious” about it because you are “still so young.” Or is it wiser to be very serious about it because supposedly its only intended purpose should be to lead towards an exclusive marriage relationship one day. I will admit that I definitely lean towards the more serious side of things. If you are “playing with another’s heart” just for the fun of it, with the idea in mind that you can “get out” of “being in a relationship” whenever you want, you are treading in very dangerous waters. As soon as you know for sure in your gut that you could not see yourself marrying the person you are dating, end the relationship as calmly and clearly as possible. Do not keep hanging on for any excuse you may be clinging to, like the fact that it could be a painful death of a fun friendship, or how afraid you might be of being single again and never finding someone else. I promise it will be the best thing for each of you and your future spouses the sooner you can recognize the necessary ending when and if it arrives. Yes, I am speaking from personal experience.

Before I met my husband, I have once dealt with a broken heart after mutually ending a relationship of several years, and I once had to be the heart breaker after just a couple short months of dating. Both necessary endings happened because the relationships were being taken quite seriously with a view towards marriage. Both were painful, although for quite different reasons. Everyone’s experiences will be different, but certainly learn from the advice and experience of others when you can, but also recognize we each have our own stories and timelines that will vary based on where God will lead you in life, so the most important relationship to be faithful to is the one with your Heavenly Father, Your Savior, Your Guiding Counselor who will lead you each step for His glory if you will learn to humbly listen and follow obediently.

SELF-CONTROL.

With this final fruit, I have way more to say than a simple, “behave yourself,” and “keep yourselves pure.” Of course, that would not be wrongly suggested advice, but it’s a bit simplistic. More than this, I think this fruit means we should be thoughtful and wise about our every action, not just the physical aspect of a dating relationship. It means take each of your thoughts and desires captive. Examine them. Ask yourself what feeling or experience, belief or truth has planted any particular “need” you think you have in you that compels you to act on it. And once again I bring up learning to listen and distinguish the Holy Spirit’s guidance above any other!

I remember for the first years of my high school dating experience trying to find that perfect answer to the question “Where is the line?” so I can make sure we don’t pass it, but maybe it excuses bumping up against it. At the root of that question is simply trying to excuse behavior that already feels like it is likely too far. But to truly help you, I would say a better question to ask to help set a healthy boundary for yourselves might be, “Would I be embarrassed to tell my parents in detail about the experience we’ve just had together?”
Sex could be compared to a fire in a home. Kept contained in the fireplace, the context it was made for, marriage, it is a beautiful thing. Left to burn out of context in the middle of the living room will destroy the whole house. And one last analogy. The stickiness of duct tape decreases exponentially the more times you pull it back and try to re-stick it again. It is so much better to let that first connection be with your spouse one day – oh what a gift that powerful bond is!

I hope you will cling to these truths, encouragements, and advice I’ve shared with you today. Keep them at the forefront of your mind as you journey through your dating experience. As a woman who has lived approximately double the number of years you have, I can only hope this extra life experience has been profitable for you to learn from. May God help you live out and apply all that is good and true and comes first from His heart to you. May God bless you and fill you up to overflowing with His peace, love, and joy. May He work in you to create a patient, gentle, kind spirit that seeks the good for others. May you be built up in Christlike character through self-control. And may you be hopeful in God’s faithfulness to you and let your story become a part of His grander story by following Him obediently and faithfully first and foremost.

Your sister in Christ,
Meggan Vasileiadou

Growing Pains

Whew… what a week. (Well, this was originally written back in June, but never got around to doing any minor editing and posting it at that point)

We removed the railing from the side of my almost 2-year old’s crib. It wasn’t really a necessity. He wasn’t climbing out of it or anything. But his little brother is growing in my womb and its true that our “go to sleep” routine needed some sort of shift… but I was selfishly scared of the sleep that would be sacrificed by this change. He had officially succeeded in spoiling me with his excellent sleep habits through the months of my pregnancy thus far. Often sleeping 12-13 hours at night, and even more recently up to a fairly regular three hour nap in the afternoon.

So, the change… it was a rough start. He was so used to being able to stand up in his crib and grab the railing, that the first time I laid him down in the dark, I turned around to watch his fateful flying superman leap from the bed. It was the first time I truly cried for my child’s pain… and honestly, it wasn’t the worst bump he’s endured to date… I was just emotional, overwhelmed, and… dah gone it, the first wave of scorching hot weather for the summer had just hit as well, and I frankly wasn’t managing to handle it all that well.

This is just one of the “growing pains” of the summer. Others include:

  • Watching Theodore continue to grow all too fast
  • Shaving off his growing hair to endure the summer heat – and believe me, it was “painful” for him, ha.
  • My womb, wow, it’s growing and expanding with new life. Back pain carrying a heavier load along with fairly frequent lifting of a well-built toddler = growing. pain. indeed.
  • Attempts at getting over my fear of Athens driving
  • Longing to let Christ’s sanctifying work be evident in my life through things like more humbleness and patience being lived out in conversation with my husband. Plenty of failures, but some notable “successes” in this process too this summer.
  • Trying desperately to reign in the grumbling when cockroaches decided to raid our apartment and crawl all over me in my bed and while laying next to my son in his room trying to put him to sleep. Oh boy, not exactly the best way to help evoke peaceful restfulness…
  • Recognizing the need for greater self-discipline in daily mommy and household tasks. There may be a “reasonable” list of excuses for not “performing” better in this department at this season of late pregnancy in a hot Athens summer, but it still doesn’t mean there hasn’t been possibility for growth and progress in this area. It will be never-ending, and it can’t just stop because the challenges will continue to come and go constantly, probably not getting easier, more likely, harder yet.

So there’s my list of things “growing” in my life. But I wrote them from a perspective of being painful, hard, annoying, challenging… It’s true. Growth hurts. It can may very well be difficult more often than not. But it’s also rewarding if faced with the right perspective. Instead of focusing on the pain or failed attempts at adapting a new habit or attitude, we can look at the value of the experience as a whole as something very positive and helpful, leading to new life – and most literally in the case of my pregnant growing mid-section!

I’ll end with a quote from another encouraging mommy blog I’ve been reading this summer:

An attitude that perceives life from the lens of growth rather than mere failure or success makes us resilient, open & grateful.When we see the circumstances God sends our way as opportunities to grow, then we do not have to fear, we do not have to get angry, we do not have to panic. Instead, we hunker down and see that we are being given the opportunity to practice this or that fruit of the Spirit and pray for it to be granted us. We see our need and get the grace that will see us through.

Choosing a growth mindset is sanctification, not self-help. We are to grow in godliness, and so if we can see our inconveniences, set-backs, and failures as providentially sent for our good, for our growth, we will be able to work through them with faith and not wallow in them in fear. The good news is that when we practice acting out the right choice in such everyday situations, it will slowly change our internal responses.

~Mystie @ simplifiedorganization.com